SEED - THE ACADEMY IS…

            This song just always hits me really deep when I listen to it. It’s pretty much the relationship between Matt and I in song form. Ashley dissected it for me a long time ago:

            The first verse describes how you thought you could be more than friends, “we turned into something else entirely” but it’s told with hindsight, so you know now you couldn’t, “I wanted it so desperately to be real”.

            Now he’s pretty much left you, taking a part of you along with him, “run, run, holding on to some pieces that you left behind” and even when he left you, you were still attached to him, and now as you try to move on you want him to come back “hope now, as I walk away you’re the one that finds me out”.

            And the whole feeling towards the end of the year, last year [two years ago now] when we were trying to figure out if he liked you or if he didn’t, you were letting him in and he was being a dbag “while he’s letting you in, you’ve got the feeling you’ve been followed under your skin”.

            And then he blew you off, it obviously made you feel shitty “it will be weighing on your shoulder, believe it” but you would cling to the times when he made you feel good “I’d capture the phrases inside of the cage beneath my chest and keep it locked for days”.

            You wanted him to listen to the unspoken words that you would be much better with him than Alison [his girlfriend] “I wanted you so desperately to believe me”.

            All the times he ignored you, “run, run, why are you running from another conversation?”

            And how as cute as he was, he never liked you like that [not that we know of] “let all your small secrets you don’t have to speak for me to believe it but what do you mean?”.

            He was just like every other dbag boy, letting amazing girls down “you’ve got that seed in you”.

            Psh and when every time he blew you off “shaken and faint, it was the hardest thing to swallow pretending you don’t miss me, you’ve got that seed in you, you’ve got that scene in you…”.

            And now you’re trying to move on while still not having fully given up on him “while letting you in I’ll be thinking about tomorrow” and you still remember all the blurred lines between friendship and more and how much of a dbag he was confusing you “and every time we cross those lines you’ve got that scene in you…”.

            You’re still confused between moving on because you know you should. You have to but its hard, “hope now as I walk away you’re the only one that finds me out.”